Life is what you make of it. Always has been, always will be.
Thursday, 9 September 2010
Sunday, 25 July 2010
Sungmin made me cry today but, Charice saved the day
Tuesday, 20 July 2010
'myblacksmile' said Goodbye...
WARNING: Major...
Wait, before anything else, I just want to rant for a bit..
Ok. Here goes..
I HATE IT! I HATE THE FACT THAT MY FANGIRLING LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN~!!! Grrr....
and my story needs a timeline. LOL
16 July, Friday:
The story was told by my Lead Agent to me~ At work, my supervisors and manager had a Seniors Meeting and one of thethings they discussed is about the forbidden internet access at work. Well, they are not innocent to not know that their employees are stealing time to access the net. ANd we are also not stupid to deny it, coz most of the time we are always caught in the act.
At the meeting, they mentioned "TWEETING" of some of the agents during work hours. And what made them think is how did the agents opened twitter.com even if it's blocked. No one during the meeting reveal the proxy sites [Thank God]. The manager mentioned a name of the agent whom she saw tweeting during work. Fortunately, it' wasn't my name, unfortunately, manager told everyone it was my friend. Katrina.
My reaction when I heard it: Seriously LMAO. WTF Katrina DOESN'T HAVE A TWITTER and she got caught. LMAO!!!! XD
Poor Katrina. She was blamed by her bestfriends fault [that's me! XD]
My Lead agent told me that I should stop that TWITTER thing before I get caught and receive some serious punishment. So I told her, I will.... even if it breaks my heart. :(
At that moment, I kept on thinking that if I stopped tweeting, it's like stop loving SungMin. [LOL. XD]
But I don't want to be terminated too..
So it was hard.. I'm like torn between two lovers. [LOL]
By the end of the day, I told myself,
I'll tweet if I want to tweet.. come what may~ I don't care if I will get caught. ~_~
17 July, Saturday:
Sungmin tweeted his 'last tweet'.
He was saying that he's happy to had that kind of social ntwrok account and he need to suspend it for the meantime.
He said it's goodbye for now..
I had no idea he tweeted something like that until the next day 18 July...
18 July, Sunday:
While keeping myself busy, I was thinking of reasons why did Min ditch TWITTER. My conclusions:
1. Maybe Sungmin wants to tweet using a much edgy smartphone but he can't coz his current phone is still covered by the telecom contract..
2. Maybe he's enjoying UFO more than twitter.. And it's obvious coz of the reply ELFs received from Sungmin. X(
or 3. [This is my weird thinking] Maybe Sungmin doesn't want me to get caught tweeting at work, that's why he said goodbye.
Hahahahaha....
I was smiling like a crazy person when I tought of that 3rd reason...
LOL.
Summin it up:
I use twitter to talk to Sungmin.
He has been one of my my main reason why I kept my twitter account.
That's why I love tweeting anytime, anywhere of the day even if I know my job is at risk...
I almost got caught Tweeting by my supervisors..
Sungmin decided to suspend his account on twitter...
So now I will never get caught tweeting coz my reason for tweeting is already gone.
Sungmin, u really care for me...
I knew it. XD
Thanks for closing your twitter account, I still have my job..
But still... I will miss your tweets espcially your profile pic. XD
Monday, 12 July 2010
I love you 'M'
Sunday, 11 July 2010
I miss you.
I love 'NO OTHER' more than any SuJu song ever created. Yes, I do love it because of the meaning, but I love it more coz it made my Sungmin smile like an innocent child again.
Seeing him all smiles every time they perform [No Other] made me feel relieved and in heaven.
Saturday, 3 July 2010
FANGIRLING is not a CRIME
Geez, I can't be called a blogger then. XD
Anyway, I kind of left a cliffhanger there. Well, to conclude... I mean, what happened after my 'immature' entry....?
I told my friends about that. Of course, I don't want to be unfair to them. I want them to know what I truly feel about the situation. And I was so ashamed of myself. It was so immature of me to react that way. Really..XD
My bestfriend told me that maybe the reason I felt all left out and deprived... Maybe I cannot let go of them. It's hard for me to live life without my friends. I became all possessive and jealous again. Gosh, I hate the fact that I am becoming the highschooler Diane all over again. Yaish...
But what can I do, that's life. Maybe I am supposed to feel that way or my friends won't realize what I am really up to.
However, everything is fine and settled now. And my friends kind of realized that I was the one who is having a BIT of problem all this time... And that is - I FANGIRL TOO MUCH!
I don't know but I never realized that my stress reliever could lead to these. Or maybe I just became so abusive of my fangirling means... IRDK. OR Maybe all I care about is how to satisfy my fangirlng fantasies. Pfftt...
I've almost drowned myself with TWITTER, hoping Sungmin and other SuJu members reply to my tweets especially that SiWon is my FOLLOWER. [my username on twitter is 'grannyDSJH' BTW. :)] Twitter is also one of the reason why I hardly open my other blog accounts [ blogger, tumblr, etc... ] and keep them updated. BUT I must take the I.T. Department in work my MAIN reason why I don't update my blog that much... Geez, they think they'll get rich on forbidding us to use the net. Whatever~~ XD
And after Super Show 2 here in Manila, it's really hard for me to move on and not reminsce all the memories. So if I have time to fangirl, I use it. If my eyes are not yet tired to stare at Sungmin pictures, I just keep on doing it~. XD
I think I overdid being a fangirl. BUT WHAT CAN I DO?!! TO FANGIRL IS MY LIFE! AND FANGIRLING IS MY STRESS RELIEVER!!! I've only had limited time after a work so spare me....
But I must think... Think wisely. Use my time wisely.
OK. I'll teach myself to lessen my addiction, but I cannot promise to everyone that it will just go away. Especially now that SUNGMIN is learning how to.... how to... Show his UBER-HOT BODY!!! Hahahaha.... The most rewarding of all.... XD
" I was born an ELF and die an ELF " [Geez, that was a bit scary quote that I made... But yeah... Whatever]
Oh. yeah. HAPPY to be back here on BLOGGER! Cheers..!
Saturday, 15 May 2010
Are you FRIENDLY?? Then stop it...
I've posted this phrase in all of my social network accounts and I'm going to shout it in here too.
DON'T BE TOO FRIENDLY, YOU'LL LOSE YOUR REAL FRIENDS.
I know that I've reacted way too much about that effin' post [my friend posted on her FB wall]. IDK but I just couldn't accept it... to the point that I almost lost my composure.
For some people, it may be shallow, but dude it striked me.
Hate to put it in a way that I am the one who will act all immaturely about this, but if we'll look back to yesterweeks, I think I was the 'victim' of one's insensitivity.
I tried to hold myself back and tried to understand my friend [whom I look up to coz she's my mentor too]. I never put on a frown face nor negative reactions about her comments to me -- that I'm WAY TOO FRIENDLY already.
I know she's just concerned that I may have put a 100% trust to a new friends that I made. I know she's a bit worried that I may give my trust to a wrong person. Well, thanks to her. Really... But everytime she sees me fooling and having a good time with my new found buddies she'll tell me that I wouldn't want to hang out with THEM anymore.
It was weird coz it feels like deprivation. IT's like....I was having a good chat with these new people and then there.. your old friend making a fuss about it. I mean come on, you guys are my original friends, no one could ever take your place in me. I just want to explore a new side of me that's why I want to hang out or talk to new set of people. Well, yeah, most of the time I only talk about my fandom with my new friends, but still come on... What's the big deal.
I know it's immature to bring that kind of issue in my rant. For a mature person, that kind of thing shouldn't be taken seriously. But I cannot avoid it now that I found out that the bunch of people who once deprived me from my happiness had a great dinner together without ME.
It may sound pretty childish, I know, but it sounds selfish to me.
Again I hate to think about it but it feels like.. you guys can be happy together, while I cannot!!What went wrong~
Is being friendly a wrong thing?? My mom never told me about it. Sorry...
To my friends, Thanks so much for the concern, but I know how the world works and I know whom I should trust. Don't you worry about me. But I just want you to know that it hurts me a lot everytime you tell me that I don't want to hang out with you guys anymore. But it hurts more to know that you can be happy without me.
Is this fate's revenge?? Well if yes, it hurts. It really does.
Wednesday, 21 April 2010
Lazy
I've been waiting my own moment to write a fanaccount about Super Show and then there.. I was given the chance to attend the show but look at me still all lazy started nothing. Nothing~
BUT I really wanted to write my own fan account.
Right...
No one can stop me.
Better late than never.
Do I really need to create a proper [fanaccount] one or just random things about the show~??
Oh... Thoughts... thoughtss... A lot of thlooughts in my head~....
Monday, 12 April 2010
Fanaccount: TeukMin's CONDOM Moments
[The Story Behind the Condoms~]
It was during PAJAMA PARTY when it happened.
During the 2nd part of the song, SUNGMIN was dancing to
the song while walking towards the main stage. He noticed
something on stage. Something that really caught his
attention. I was wondering what he saw. My sister
answered: "Ate, it was condoms. Fans threw condoms to
the stage". SUNGMIN then started laughing and couldn't
control his self so he called his TEUKI Hyung. TEUKI walk
towards SUNGMIN who was then pointing at the condoms.
When TEUKI saw the condoms scattered on the floor, he
hurriedly pick it all up one by one as if it was HIS. He even
rolled on the floor laughing and feel a little ashamed of the
items that he was holding. SUNGMIN was just beside him
laughing like crazy too. Fans got crazy when the two did
not stand up to continue singing, so they[fans] continued
to threw other "naughty stuffs" to the stage. There were
BOXERS, BRIEFS and the most daring is the RED LINGERIE.
While fans keep on throwing stuffs, Sungmin and Leeteuk
also continued on their teasing and laughing. IN SHORT,
they never sing again [to Pajama Party]. TEUKI collect all
the condoms he saw and he put it in a pink pouch.
SUNGMIN stood up far away from his HYUNG coz he
couldn't hold his laughter. He walked towards TEUKI again
and hit his HYUNG's back. {OMG the injury. Careful Minnie.
When Leeteuk is finishing on gathering all the condoms, he
gave SUNGMIN the box of BOXERS. Sungmin is laughing like
hell again.
When the song is almost over, EUNHYUK walks towards
SUNGMIN [and to the main stage]. SUNGMIN Asked
EUNHYUK to open the little thing fans threw to the stage.
SUNGMIN knew all along what was it so he couldn't hold
back again his laughter. Sungmin walked away from
EUNHYUK who was then trying his best opening that little
thing. When EUNHYUK finally opened the plastic, he was so
shocked that it was a RED UNDIES [lingerie]. SUNGMIN
rolled on the floor laughing. And EUNHYUK throws away the
LINGERIE leaving the fans with a very PRICELESS look.
After the song they all run back to the backstage and
SUNGMIN doesn't even realized that he was still holding the
box of BOXERS[briefs].
These boys are just soooo naughty~
I will upload the full fancam of these maybe later~ Hehehe.
So hope u'll enjoy it.
-grannyLEE-
Monday, 5 April 2010
5 Days to Go
Saturday, 27 March 2010
14 Days to Go...
March 27, 2010 - EARTH HOUR
Let's offer 1 hour of this year to turn of the lights in our home and join the whole world on saving our Mother Earth.
You can check Official websites of the campaign to check your local time in there.
1 hour is a little time but enough to save earth and mankind. ^^
Saturday, 27 February 2010
'4Minute' of Kpop Craze [wid pic]
No. I am not saying that I am a 4minute anti but I just don't think I can follow their rose to fame for there are a LOT of girl bands/boy bands in Kpop industry these days. And considering I'm an ELF, the boy group I love is composed of 15 members. ... That's a lot of guys to handle. Plus, I am also a part time Shawol [SHINee]. ^^
I don't know but I set my mind that if I see 4minute, I wouldn't care to spare a time to watch their MV and sing their song. I told myself- it's sick to watch them~
I was blinded. I judged them before I saw their talents.
When I found out that they will be coming to my country to do their international promotions, I feel a bit of excitement despite of hating them. Maybe because they will showcase their dancing and singing abilities for free. And again as Kpop follower it's a MUST to see them live.
Almost a month before their promotions, I downloaded songs of 4minute, memorized and danced to it. I've been a fan of G7 [Invincible Youth] so I am familiar with HyeoNa. And then I started to like them(4minute) little by little. I guess I just got blinded by SNSD's legs that's why it's hard for me to appreciate another girl group [Oh gosh.. My masculine side is active again. XD].
AND I told myself that I swallowed what I told Zaty that I hate 4minute~
They arrived Manila, Philippines last 4th of Feb. They will stay in Manila until 8th of Feb. And I decided to see their show on the 6th. I have to take a leave from work just to see them. See.. Im loving them already! Hehehe...
I wasn't able to get there early so I expect that we won't get good seats at their mall tour.
It's alright, Unnie found a nice spot. Even if it is just beside the stage, we'll still have a nice view of the girls.
They came to the event center 20 minutes before the show. That was a nice way of showing how professional they are. They are not late. ^^
Start of the show. Fans starting to get crazy. Fans in all walks of life are there. Fangirls, fanboys, fanmoms and even fandads are there. Yes. There is such thing as a fandad coz I brought mine with me. ^^
The girls sang total of 5 songs including their version of PCD's "Stick With You".
After their performance, an authograph signing was held.
I was not able to get any autograph with them. I am not that lucky enough.
But seeing them performing live and with full energy, It's all worth it. :)
All I wanted to say now is that I feel guilty judging them before. Coz now I super duper adore 4minute. The characteristics that Im looking for in artist is in them. The whole show until they made an exit to the venue, they've been SMILING all along. Waving to all of their fans. I mean if they could just stop to every fan and thank them, they would do it. THEY are sooo nice. All pretty and cute. Very humble and appreciate evrything their Filipino fans had prepare for them.
Oh~!!! I super duper l♥ve the magnae So Hyun . She is sooooo cute and really NICE. I wanted to take her home with me.And also Hyuna. Hyuna is just hot. Hehehe... SHe can transform form a girl to a one hot 100% performer. Actually all of them is my love.
Zaty I know that u still don't like 4Minute, but me, I have to take my words back. I like them now. :)
Here are some of my pics from the show. Again, my photos are not photos I can boast about. I take all these as my memories, nice Kpop memories with 4Minute. But if u feel like taking it out, please credit me. Also the vid. ^^
Sunday, 21 February 2010
C-R-A-P
Sunday, 14 February 2010
Hello SHINee
Friday, 5 February 2010
EAT YOU UP [plus... greetings to ZATY ^^]
And now the nightmare is still on... And Im going crazy.
Anyways...
A lot of things is eating up my brain these days.
And im kind of worried if the brain cells that i lost, the dead ones, will be replaced.. Oh darn~!! >__<>__< size="3">to my dongsaeng Zaty, uhmmmmm.... what's the day tomorrow??
Are we celebrating something tomorrow?
Hummmmm....
What could it be... ^__*
ZATY Dongsaeng, SAENG IL CHU KA HAM NI DA~!
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Thursday, 4 February 2010
Sunday, 31 January 2010
And the LAZY AWARD goes to.....
Oh my. No one and nothing can be lazier than me.
I maybe lazy on posting entries here on my blog.
But believe it or not...
I'm a changed person now this 2010.
I've never been this disciplined in my whole life.
I've never been this hard working..... ever.
There is only one thing I've became like this..
.....
.....
......
SS2
Saturday, 9 January 2010
Fantastic! Elastic! [last part] with few pics
and then I posted it just now???!!! WTH am
I? Well... Pfft..]
Ok.As the SHINee adventure continues...
After the guys showed off their extra talents, Isak and Luis said their goodbyes and left SHINee on stage to perform one of the most addicting song of 2009. RING DING DONG. And again the fans went barbaric~ LOL.
I don't know but everytime I hear the song, all the bells in my body are RINGING. And imagine, what more if its LIVE. Oh my goodness.... nothing can beat that moment. It's FANTASTIC!!!
Jonghyun's line is like a comfort food to my soul. XD. Waaah. I so love his intro. The moment he started to sing it's like an indication of an absolute performance is ahead of you~. Everything fits perfectly... I mean, almost [coz Teamin wasn't present. T_T. But Minho filled his position^^].
It's like a dream come true being there and singing along with the guys. They are so full of energy and they were able to bring out the best in the group even if Taemin is missing. But yeah they could've been better if they are complete.
Waaah~!! And Key bangging his head once in a while is superb. Even if the hair is kind of desctructing, he is still HOT!!. XD
How we all wish that moment will never end.
Fans, including me, kept on screaming and screaming until the end of the song.
End of the song means end of the show. How sad. TT__TT
When the song ended, only Onew wave at the fans while exiting the stage. He left the Phil ShaWols with his SHINeeing smile. :)
Even the boys left the stage already, fans kept on shouting, "MORE, MORE~!", "ENCORE~!" and "Noona neomu Yeppeo!" XD. But of course, knowing that it is not a SHINee concert they won't come out no matter how the fans would scream their lungs out. BUT as for me, I am satisfied. Eventhough they only sang 3 songs they did not let me spend any money, not even a penny for it. Plus SHINee performed their songs with full of energy. So I told myself, that was enough. It was great.
We found our way out of the hall not hoping for anything more from the Kpop stars.
Whoa the hall is so full of satisfied and unsatisfied audience of the night. When my sisters and I are all together, we thought of staying in there for a moment. Beside the complex/building we found the people who watched the show guarding a BUS. My Unnie then hurriedly run to the bus and joined the teenagers, hoping for a last glimpse with the Kpop idols. It was so funny bcoz when we get to where the bus is, another bus came and it is like to lure the people. LOL. They even turn of the lights of the bus to lure us more. BUT of course, these kids won't go home unless they get what they want.
GOSH! I thought we found a great spot, the front of the BUS. It was so close. REALLY. That time I'm starting to imagine how SHINee would step up the BUS' stairs and load the bus with other kpop artists. Hahaha. This is it! I told myself. Armed with our cameras, we are all starting screaming SHINee members names and all. Like a practice. Hahaha.. It's kind of annoying when someone from near the door of the bus would scream once in a while like crazy as if SHINee is already there. We rely on the actions of the security men around the bus. If they started moving aggresively, it means 'it's them'. Minutes have passed still nothing... and then suddenly people started pushing each other towards the bus. OMG... Is it them??? IS it?? Ohh.. False alarm~ But it's MIGHTY MOUTH who is climbing and going in the bus.
WAAAH~!!! We want to get crazy at that time...Any moment... it'll be SHINee who'll be hopping up the vehicle...
Scream continues and then there... The reason why we are there suddenly comes next~~
OMG.!!! That's the nearest distance I could see them in person. OOOOMMMMMMMMMMGGGGGGGGGGGG~!!!! They are sooo tall. I couldn't remember who went in first. But I can only remember that I saw Onew smiling to the fans. And MINHO, OMG. I want to faint. The way he walk in the aisle of the bus is like he is strutting the runway. He is sooooo SEXY and soo TALL!. I fail to see Jonghyun and [my] Key getting into the vehicle coz of the chaos around me.. Hahaha... what do I expect? Calm and rational fans?? LOL.
The engine of the bus started to groan. And the security people is having a hard time to forced the fans to step aside so the bus can pass.... Until finally after trials, they succeded.
BUT the fans will never give up of course.We tap the side of the bus loudly so the boys will peak from the curtains. [Their manager is ruining the evening becoz he ordered the bus driver, the security and the artist to close the curtains of the bus.] MIGHTY MOUTH open their curtains and waved to the fans. Waaaah~! They are so nice to do that. But SHINee didn't open their window. I am starting to get disappointed by them but Onew suddenly open half of his curtain and waved at the fans. OMG! I was there. He put on his bright smile and in a span of 5-8 seconds he was able to see how Filipinos loves them so much.
And then comes their manager who told Onew to close the curtain. >:( ...Gosh. I want to kill that person.
I turned off my camera coz the bus left in front my eyes [and I also lost my lil sis. LOL] . And bcoz Im busy turning off the camera [and looking for my sister. XD] I missed a very important moment that night. KEY opened the curtain on the back of the bus and waved at the fans. Leaving all the fans 'high' with his smile.
Awwww!! And I missed it. :(
Well, that's not important. Hehehe...
The important thing is I was there. I was able to scream their names, sing with them live, getting high whnever I see Key smile, I was there with my friends and my sisters sharing the Kpop fun with each other is the most important. Hehehe.... Also I don't have soooo CLEAR pictures to boast about but the feeling being there... that I could boast~ ^^
So far, nothing can beat that night.. in terms of K-Popping~ *_*
Let's see if SuJu comes~ XD
Thanks for reading~ LOL.
Now some pictures to share. [Again, it's not something that can be spread all over the net. Just a proof that I was there, seen them Live RING DING DONG-ing~ :P]
The Promotional Poster of the Festival
Haggard-ness. LOL. Me and my friends in our assigned seats
at the 3rd floor. Soooo far...
Forever making me smile. SHINee singing their first song 'Stand by Me'.