Sungmin made me cry today but, Charice saved the day

People wanted to kill me right now, I know.

But I can't help not to rant about my life these days.

Please people, GIVE ME BACK MY FANGIRLING LIFE!

Finally, i had my rest day but the internet connection ruined my inet surfing plans. T_T

And it's only now, 3.30am, I have chance to satisfy myself with my netting needs. XD

I hate to accept that I can't be the old 'granny' who is updated with all the things that interests me. Now, I am catching up with everything that I miss bit by bit. And I think it will take a decade to be that updated again.

Bad day: Sungmin made me cry today with this pic:

Donghae tweeted this on their way to China.

I want to kill myself for missing this kind of Min.

I mean, I want to blurt out my emotions the same time Hae tweet this.

But I saw it just now and I hate it.

This is not me.

Ok call me freak, but it's my life. I am a serious SuJu fangirl and I love that profession.

[And now I'm writing and talking like a psycho... X((. LOL]

IDK, but it's killing me. XD

Good day: Charice appeared on SBS Star King again for the 3rd time and I am happy about that. It made me one proud Filipino again and a happy SuJu fangirl again. I've been hoping for a reunion of Hodong, Charice and SuJu esp. Kyuhyun [Yes, Joey, Kyu again. :)] on the said show. Looking back 3 years ago, Charice made a spectacular performance on SK and my idols experienced the super goosebumps they never had before.

I watched few of her performance today for her 3rd guesting on SK. And of course, Charice did not let me and her fans down. She showed Korea and the world once again what a truly performer is. Im happy that she choose to be on that show again coz Star King is one of the big factors that helped her to achieved what she has now.

So way to go Charice~! :)

excess: Sungmin, like what my dongsaeng Sara said, continue to do that manly pose. That's LOVE! :))

pic credit: Donghae's twitter

'myblacksmile' said Goodbye...

...and I think I'm the only Min fangirl in the world who is not so sad about it. XD

WARNING: Major...

Wait, before anything else, I just want to rant for a bit..
Ok. Here goes..
I HATE IT! I HATE THE FACT THAT MY FANGIRLING LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN~!!! Grrr....

W A R N I N G: Major 'fangirl-thinking' ahead!!

and my story needs a timeline. LOL

16 July, Friday:
The story was told by my Lead Agent to me~ At work, my supervisors and manager had a Seniors Meeting and one of thethings they discussed is about the forbidden internet access at work. Well, they are not innocent to not know that their employees are stealing time to access the net. ANd we are also not stupid to deny it, coz most of the time we are always caught in the act.
At the meeting, they mentioned "TWEETING" of some of the agents during work hours. And what made them think is how did the agents opened twitter.com even if it's blocked. No one during the meeting reveal the proxy sites [Thank God]. The manager mentioned a name of the agent whom she saw tweeting during work. Fortunately, it' wasn't my name, unfortunately, manager told everyone it was my friend. Katrina.
My reaction when I heard it: Seriously LMAO. WTF Katrina DOESN'T HAVE A TWITTER and she got caught. LMAO!!!! XD

Poor Katrina. She was blamed by her bestfriends fault [that's me! XD]

My Lead agent told me that I should stop that TWITTER thing before I get caught and receive some serious punishment. So I told her, I will.... even if it breaks my heart. :(

At that moment, I kept on thinking that if I stopped tweeting, it's like stop loving SungMin. [LOL. XD]
But I don't want to be terminated too..
So it was hard.. I'm like torn between two lovers. [LOL]

By the end of the day, I told myself,
I'll tweet if I want to tweet.. come what may~ I don't care if I will get caught. ~_~


17 July, Saturday:
Sungmin tweeted his 'last tweet'.
He was saying that he's happy to had that kind of social ntwrok account and he need to suspend it for the meantime.
He said it's goodbye for now..

I had no idea he tweeted something like that until the next day 18 July...

18 July, Sunday:
While keeping myself busy, I was thinking of reasons why did Min ditch TWITTER. My conclusions:

1. Maybe Sungmin wants to tweet using a much edgy smartphone but he can't coz his current phone is still covered by the telecom contract..

2. Maybe he's enjoying UFO more than twitter.. And it's obvious coz of the reply ELFs received from Sungmin. X(

or 3. [This is my weird thinking] Maybe Sungmin doesn't want me to get caught tweeting at work, that's why he said goodbye.

Hahahahaha....
I was smiling like a crazy person when I tought of that 3rd reason...
LOL.

Summin it up:
I use twitter to talk to Sungmin.
He has been one of my my main reason why I kept my twitter account.
That's why I love tweeting anytime, anywhere of the day even if I know my job is at risk...
I almost got caught Tweeting by my supervisors..
Sungmin decided to suspend his account on twitter...
So now I will never get caught tweeting coz my reason for tweeting is already gone.

Sungmin, u really care for me...
I knew it. XD

Thanks for closing your twitter account, I still have my job..
But still... I will miss your tweets espcially your profile pic. XD

I love you 'M'

Gosh.. I could've been there and take pictures with him.

But I just let all my chances slipped away.

Silly me. I should have listened to my brother. He really thinks I deserve to have a break so he keeps on pushing me to join my other sis on a vacay. But what did I do....??

I refused..

I thought it was not a good idea.

And now what..??

Here I am and suffering from regrets.

Arggghhhhhh >:(

Gosh! My Unnie is so lucky to meet that kind of creature. ;) Hahaha...

I wish I could post the pics here, but it would be so unfair of me to do it. (But if u ask me to show it to you, well I might do it. XD)

The 'guy' has a life. And I don't want to ruin it. (Ruin...?! LOL)

BUT I REALLY can't stop myself from thinking that I could've met him too.

Oh gosh. Seriously, I should stop now. ~_~

excess:

Min sorry but Michael is a nice catch. And I think I fell in love with him already. XD LMAO!

excess 2:

I can't believe I think like that. Close to being a *cough* p..p..perv *coughs* ROFL.

WHATEVER! But right now all I know is.. my heart's shouting, "I HEART YOU MICHAEL". XD

I miss you.

If my friends were here and started invading my blogging world they will think that I'm a total freak.

Arghhh... I can't help but to feed my eyes with Min photos. They are just to cute to resist. XD.

Like right now.

I love 'NO OTHER' more than any SuJu song ever created. Yes, I do love it because of the meaning, but I love it more coz it made my Sungmin smile like an innocent child again.
Seeing him all smiles every time they perform [No Other] made me feel relieved and in heaven.

Sungmin, never lose that smile again... Thank you..

And oh yeah, by the way.... I miss you. :-/

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pic credit: Sungmin Baidu

shared by: MINvasion

FANGIRLING is not a CRIME

That was like ages. It's hard to believe that my last entry was 2months ago. Seriously... What am I??

Geez, I can't be called a blogger then. XD



Anyway, I kind of left a cliffhanger there. Well, to conclude... I mean, what happened after my 'immature' entry....?

I told my friends about that. Of course, I don't want to be unfair to them. I want them to know what I truly feel about the situation. And I was so ashamed of myself. It was so immature of me to react that way. Really..XD

My bestfriend told me that maybe the reason I felt all left out and deprived... Maybe I cannot let go of them. It's hard for me to live life without my friends. I became all possessive and jealous again. Gosh, I hate the fact that I am becoming the highschooler Diane all over again. Yaish...

But what can I do, that's life. Maybe I am supposed to feel that way or my friends won't realize what I am really up to.
However, everything is fine and settled now. And my friends kind of realized that I was the one who is having a BIT of problem all this time... And that is - I FANGIRL TOO MUCH!

I don't know but I never realized that my stress reliever could lead to these. Or maybe I just became so abusive of my fangirling means... IRDK. OR Maybe all I care about is how to satisfy my fangirlng fantasies. Pfftt...

I've almost drowned myself with TWITTER, hoping Sungmin and other SuJu members reply to my tweets especially that SiWon is my FOLLOWER. [my username on twitter is 'grannyDSJH' BTW. :)] Twitter is also one of the reason why I hardly open my other blog accounts [ blogger, tumblr, etc... ] and keep them updated. BUT I must take the I.T. Department in work my MAIN reason why I don't update my blog that much... Geez, they think they'll get rich on forbidding us to use the net. Whatever~~ XD

And after Super Show 2 here in Manila, it's really hard for me to move on and not reminsce all the memories. So if I have time to fangirl, I use it. If my eyes are not yet tired to stare at Sungmin pictures, I just keep on doing it~. XD

I think I overdid being a fangirl. BUT WHAT CAN I DO?!! TO FANGIRL IS MY LIFE! AND FANGIRLING IS MY STRESS RELIEVER!!! I've only had limited time after a work so spare me....


But I must think... Think wisely. Use my time wisely.

OK. I'll teach myself to lessen my addiction, but I cannot promise to everyone that it will just go away. Especially now that SUNGMIN is learning how to.... how to... Show his UBER-HOT BODY!!! Hahahaha.... The most rewarding of all.... XD

" I was born an ELF and die an ELF " [Geez, that was a bit scary quote that I made... But yeah... Whatever]



Oh. yeah. HAPPY to be back here on BLOGGER! Cheers..!