i miss everything

Sungmin made me cry today but, Charice saved the day

People wanted to kill me right now, I know.

But I can't help not to rant about my life these days.

Please people, GIVE ME BACK MY FANGIRLING LIFE!

Finally, i had my rest day but the internet connection ruined my inet surfing plans. T_T

And it's only now, 3.30am, I have chance to satisfy myself with my netting needs. XD

I hate to accept that I can't be the old 'granny' who is updated with all the things that interests me. Now, I am catching up with everything that I miss bit by bit. And I think it will take a decade to be that updated again.

Bad day: Sungmin made me cry today with this pic:

Donghae tweeted this on their way to China.

I want to kill myself for missing this kind of Min.

I mean, I want to blurt out my emotions the same time Hae tweet this.

But I saw it just now and I hate it.

This is not me.

Ok call me freak, but it's my life. I am a serious SuJu fangirl and I love that profession.

[And now I'm writing and talking like a psycho... X((. LOL]

IDK, but it's killing me. XD

Good day: Charice appeared on SBS Star King again for the 3rd time and I am happy about that. It made me one proud Filipino again and a happy SuJu fangirl again. I've been hoping for a reunion of Hodong, Charice and SuJu esp. Kyuhyun [Yes, Joey, Kyu again. :)] on the said show. Looking back 3 years ago, Charice made a spectacular performance on SK and my idols experienced the super goosebumps they never had before.

I watched few of her performance today for her 3rd guesting on SK. And of course, Charice did not let me and her fans down. She showed Korea and the world once again what a truly performer is. Im happy that she choose to be on that show again coz Star King is one of the big factors that helped her to achieved what she has now.

So way to go Charice~! :)

excess: Sungmin, like what my dongsaeng Sara said, continue to do that manly pose. That's LOVE! :))

pic credit: Donghae's twitter

'myblacksmile' said Goodbye...

...and I think I'm the only Min fangirl in the world who is not so sad about it. XD

WARNING: Major...

Wait, before anything else, I just want to rant for a bit..
Ok. Here goes..
I HATE IT! I HATE THE FACT THAT MY FANGIRLING LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN~!!! Grrr....

W A R N I N G: Major 'fangirl-thinking' ahead!!

and my story needs a timeline. LOL

16 July, Friday:
The story was told by my Lead Agent to me~ At work, my supervisors and manager had a Seniors Meeting and one of thethings they discussed is about the forbidden internet access at work. Well, they are not innocent to not know that their employees are stealing time to access the net. ANd we are also not stupid to deny it, coz most of the time we are always caught in the act.
At the meeting, they mentioned "TWEETING" of some of the agents during work hours. And what made them think is how did the agents opened twitter.com even if it's blocked. No one during the meeting reveal the proxy sites [Thank God]. The manager mentioned a name of the agent whom she saw tweeting during work. Fortunately, it' wasn't my name, unfortunately, manager told everyone it was my friend. Katrina.
My reaction when I heard it: Seriously LMAO. WTF Katrina DOESN'T HAVE A TWITTER and she got caught. LMAO!!!! XD

Poor Katrina. She was blamed by her bestfriends fault [that's me! XD]

My Lead agent told me that I should stop that TWITTER thing before I get caught and receive some serious punishment. So I told her, I will.... even if it breaks my heart. :(

At that moment, I kept on thinking that if I stopped tweeting, it's like stop loving SungMin. [LOL. XD]
But I don't want to be terminated too..
So it was hard.. I'm like torn between two lovers. [LOL]

By the end of the day, I told myself,
I'll tweet if I want to tweet.. come what may~ I don't care if I will get caught. ~_~


17 July, Saturday:
Sungmin tweeted his 'last tweet'.
He was saying that he's happy to had that kind of social ntwrok account and he need to suspend it for the meantime.
He said it's goodbye for now..

I had no idea he tweeted something like that until the next day 18 July...

18 July, Sunday:
While keeping myself busy, I was thinking of reasons why did Min ditch TWITTER. My conclusions:

1. Maybe Sungmin wants to tweet using a much edgy smartphone but he can't coz his current phone is still covered by the telecom contract..

2. Maybe he's enjoying UFO more than twitter.. And it's obvious coz of the reply ELFs received from Sungmin. X(

or 3. [This is my weird thinking] Maybe Sungmin doesn't want me to get caught tweeting at work, that's why he said goodbye.

Hahahahaha....
I was smiling like a crazy person when I tought of that 3rd reason...
LOL.

Summin it up:
I use twitter to talk to Sungmin.
He has been one of my my main reason why I kept my twitter account.
That's why I love tweeting anytime, anywhere of the day even if I know my job is at risk...
I almost got caught Tweeting by my supervisors..
Sungmin decided to suspend his account on twitter...
So now I will never get caught tweeting coz my reason for tweeting is already gone.

Sungmin, u really care for me...
I knew it. XD

Thanks for closing your twitter account, I still have my job..
But still... I will miss your tweets espcially your profile pic. XD

I love you 'M'

Gosh.. I could've been there and take pictures with him.

But I just let all my chances slipped away.

Silly me. I should have listened to my brother. He really thinks I deserve to have a break so he keeps on pushing me to join my other sis on a vacay. But what did I do....??

I refused..

I thought it was not a good idea.

And now what..??

Here I am and suffering from regrets.

Arggghhhhhh >:(

Gosh! My Unnie is so lucky to meet that kind of creature. ;) Hahaha...

I wish I could post the pics here, but it would be so unfair of me to do it. (But if u ask me to show it to you, well I might do it. XD)

The 'guy' has a life. And I don't want to ruin it. (Ruin...?! LOL)

BUT I REALLY can't stop myself from thinking that I could've met him too.

Oh gosh. Seriously, I should stop now. ~_~

excess:

Min sorry but Michael is a nice catch. And I think I fell in love with him already. XD LMAO!

excess 2:

I can't believe I think like that. Close to being a *cough* p..p..perv *coughs* ROFL.

WHATEVER! But right now all I know is.. my heart's shouting, "I HEART YOU MICHAEL". XD

I miss you.

If my friends were here and started invading my blogging world they will think that I'm a total freak.

Arghhh... I can't help but to feed my eyes with Min photos. They are just to cute to resist. XD.

Like right now.

I love 'NO OTHER' more than any SuJu song ever created. Yes, I do love it because of the meaning, but I love it more coz it made my Sungmin smile like an innocent child again.
Seeing him all smiles every time they perform [No Other] made me feel relieved and in heaven.

Sungmin, never lose that smile again... Thank you..

And oh yeah, by the way.... I miss you. :-/

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pic credit: Sungmin Baidu

shared by: MINvasion

FANGIRLING is not a CRIME

That was like ages. It's hard to believe that my last entry was 2months ago. Seriously... What am I??

Geez, I can't be called a blogger then. XD



Anyway, I kind of left a cliffhanger there. Well, to conclude... I mean, what happened after my 'immature' entry....?

I told my friends about that. Of course, I don't want to be unfair to them. I want them to know what I truly feel about the situation. And I was so ashamed of myself. It was so immature of me to react that way. Really..XD

My bestfriend told me that maybe the reason I felt all left out and deprived... Maybe I cannot let go of them. It's hard for me to live life without my friends. I became all possessive and jealous again. Gosh, I hate the fact that I am becoming the highschooler Diane all over again. Yaish...

But what can I do, that's life. Maybe I am supposed to feel that way or my friends won't realize what I am really up to.
However, everything is fine and settled now. And my friends kind of realized that I was the one who is having a BIT of problem all this time... And that is - I FANGIRL TOO MUCH!

I don't know but I never realized that my stress reliever could lead to these. Or maybe I just became so abusive of my fangirling means... IRDK. OR Maybe all I care about is how to satisfy my fangirlng fantasies. Pfftt...

I've almost drowned myself with TWITTER, hoping Sungmin and other SuJu members reply to my tweets especially that SiWon is my FOLLOWER. [my username on twitter is 'grannyDSJH' BTW. :)] Twitter is also one of the reason why I hardly open my other blog accounts [ blogger, tumblr, etc... ] and keep them updated. BUT I must take the I.T. Department in work my MAIN reason why I don't update my blog that much... Geez, they think they'll get rich on forbidding us to use the net. Whatever~~ XD

And after Super Show 2 here in Manila, it's really hard for me to move on and not reminsce all the memories. So if I have time to fangirl, I use it. If my eyes are not yet tired to stare at Sungmin pictures, I just keep on doing it~. XD

I think I overdid being a fangirl. BUT WHAT CAN I DO?!! TO FANGIRL IS MY LIFE! AND FANGIRLING IS MY STRESS RELIEVER!!! I've only had limited time after a work so spare me....


But I must think... Think wisely. Use my time wisely.

OK. I'll teach myself to lessen my addiction, but I cannot promise to everyone that it will just go away. Especially now that SUNGMIN is learning how to.... how to... Show his UBER-HOT BODY!!! Hahahaha.... The most rewarding of all.... XD

" I was born an ELF and die an ELF " [Geez, that was a bit scary quote that I made... But yeah... Whatever]



Oh. yeah. HAPPY to be back here on BLOGGER! Cheers..!

Are you FRIENDLY?? Then stop it...

I really hate this.

I've posted this phrase in all of my social network accounts and I'm going to shout it in here too.
DON'T BE TOO FRIENDLY, YOU'LL LOSE YOUR REAL FRIENDS.

I know that I've reacted way too much about that effin' post [my friend posted on her FB wall]. IDK but I just couldn't accept it... to the point that I almost lost my composure.

For some people, it may be shallow, but dude it striked me.

Hate to put it in a way that I am the one who will act all immaturely about this, but if we'll look back to yesterweeks, I think I was the 'victim' of one's insensitivity.

I tried to hold myself back and tried to understand my friend [whom I look up to coz she's my mentor too]. I never put on a frown face nor negative reactions about her comments to me -- that I'm WAY TOO FRIENDLY already.
I know she's just concerned that I may have put a 100% trust to a new friends that I made. I know she's a bit worried that I may give my trust to a wrong person. Well, thanks to her. Really... But everytime she sees me fooling and having a good time with my new found buddies she'll tell me that I wouldn't want to hang out with THEM anymore.

It was weird coz it feels like deprivation. IT's like....I was having a good chat with these new people and then there.. your old friend making a fuss about it. I mean come on, you guys are my original friends, no one could ever take your place in me. I just want to explore a new side of me that's why I want to hang out or talk to new set of people. Well, yeah, most of the time I only talk about my fandom with my new friends, but still come on... What's the big deal.

I know it's immature to bring that kind of issue in my rant. For a mature person, that kind of thing shouldn't be taken seriously. But I cannot avoid it now that I found out that the bunch of people who once deprived me from my happiness had a great dinner together without ME.

It may sound pretty childish, I know, but it sounds selfish to me.

Again I hate to think about it but it feels like.. you guys can be happy together, while I cannot!!What went wrong~

Is being friendly a wrong thing?? My mom never told me about it. Sorry...

To my friends, Thanks so much for the concern, but I know how the world works and I know whom I should trust. Don't you worry about me. But I just want you to know that it hurts me a lot everytime you tell me that I don't want to hang out with you guys anymore. But it hurts more to know that you can be happy without me.


Is this fate's revenge?? Well if yes, it hurts. It really does.

Lazy

Seriously, no one can be lazier than me.

I've been waiting my own moment to write a fanaccount about Super Show and then there.. I was given the chance to attend the show but look at me still all lazy started nothing. Nothing~

BUT I really wanted to write my own fan account.

Right...

No one can stop me.

Better late than never.

Do I really need to create a proper [fanaccount] one or just random things about the show~??

Oh... Thoughts... thoughtss... A lot of thlooughts in my head~....

Fanaccount: TeukMin's CONDOM Moments

TeukMin's CONDOM Moments.
[The Story Behind the Condoms~]

It was during PAJAMA PARTY when it happened.
During the 2nd part of the song, SUNGMIN was dancing to
the song while walking towards the main stage. He noticed
something on stage. Something that really caught his
attention. I was wondering what he saw. My sister
answered: "Ate, it was condoms. Fans threw condoms to
the stage". SUNGMIN then started laughing and couldn't
control his self so he called his TEUKI Hyung. TEUKI walk
towards SUNGMIN who was then pointing at the condoms.
When TEUKI saw the condoms scattered on the floor, he
hurriedly pick it all up one by one as if it was HIS. He even
rolled on the floor laughing and feel a little ashamed of the
items that he was holding. SUNGMIN was just beside him
laughing like crazy too. Fans got crazy when the two did
not stand up to continue singing, so they[fans] continued
to threw other "naughty stuffs" to the stage. There were
BOXERS, BRIEFS and the most daring is the RED LINGERIE.
While fans keep on throwing stuffs, Sungmin and Leeteuk
also continued on their teasing and laughing. IN SHORT,
they never sing again [to Pajama Party]. TEUKI collect all
the condoms he saw and he put it in a pink pouch.
SUNGMIN stood up far away from his HYUNG coz he
couldn't hold his laughter. He walked towards TEUKI again
and hit his HYUNG's back. {OMG the injury. Careful Minnie.
When Leeteuk is finishing on gathering all the condoms, he
gave SUNGMIN the box of BOXERS. Sungmin is laughing like
hell again.
When the song is almost over, EUNHYUK walks towards
SUNGMIN [and to the main stage]. SUNGMIN Asked
EUNHYUK to open the little thing fans threw to the stage.
SUNGMIN knew all along what was it so he couldn't hold
back again his laughter. Sungmin walked away from
EUNHYUK who was then trying his best opening that little
thing. When EUNHYUK finally opened the plastic, he was so
shocked that it was a RED UNDIES [lingerie]. SUNGMIN
rolled on the floor laughing. And EUNHYUK throws away the
LINGERIE leaving the fans with a very PRICELESS look.
After the song they all run back to the backstage and
SUNGMIN doesn't even realized that he was still holding the
box of BOXERS[briefs].
These boys are just soooo naughty~
I will upload the full fancam of these maybe later~ Hehehe.
So hope u'll enjoy it.

-grannyLEE-

SS2 was a BLAST

I will never forget 10 April 2010.